Asked 2w ago
I want to get better too but just don't feel like going for counselling. Isn't there any way I can try to figure this out myself. I don't want to get judged for it and I know that there will be a track record of depression once I see a counsellor.
Hi Anon, I can't imagine what you are going through right now. It must be very challenging battling the sorrows and occasional feeling of lost and while you thought you are getting better another wave of emotions come hitting. Don't worry you are not the only one or alone. It is good that you are talking to your family, continue talking to them when you can. At personal level you can try exercising start slow eg. 20mins once per week as it helps to produce some good hormones or you can start writing three things that you are appreciative or happy about every day in a book or journal, try to commit to these activity for 2-3 weeks. You can also set 1 to 2 goals per day to get your day started can be as simple as "getting breakfast at YK Toast" or "read 1 article in Seedly" slowly you can add more eg "sending out 2 job application today", "designing 2 other format of CV" . Alternatively you can call 24hours hotlines where you can be anonymous and can talk about anything thats bothering you, its better to let it out sometimes. Take care my friend, you can do this.
National CARE hotline (8:00 am to midnight: 1800-202-6868)
Samaritans Of Singapore (24 Hours: 1800-221-4444)
Mental Health Helpline (24 Hours: 6389-2222)
Helpful link to understand depression better: https://www.healthhub.sg/live-healthy/231/dont_mope_cope
Sorry to hear your situation. But do not stop searching for a job or hope! Take it as a chance to learn smt new or start a new industry or job. Watch motivational videos online or talk to ppl you are close to and can trust. 💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼
In life, when you can't do something, let the professionals do their job. For eg, a leaking tap, anyone would know the easy solution is to replace the tap/valve but there are some much more that we missed out, like the new tap we have to buy/tools required/time n effort to replace it and theres a chance that more inconvenience is gonna come if we fail to diy. We need to realise that ego isnt everything and nobody is gonna care about you except your family. You said, might have a track record but tbh people are gonna remember you as someone who overcomed/took things into their own hands towards depression and not someone who got depression, if yes f them. Who doesnt have a history nowadays? Everyone has their own type of problems and the worst way to handle is to delay it. Hope you understand my pov and may you see the light at the end of the tunnel :)
Unless one has been through something similar to you, dont think we can give advice to you.
You can find if there is someone who has been through similar to you and talk to them.
Or do a call to the hotline.
Otherwise understand that your situation is not of your fault.
But one thing to know is as long as you are making yourself better than yesterday, it is an achievement.
It's nice to hear that you are blessed with a nice family who hopes you can get better soon. Well, it's more likely for you to bounce back and recover faster and better with the help of counsellors and mental health professionals. You'd want that too, right?
Regarding being judged and track records, I don't know... People shouldn't be judging based on past medical history but there may still be such people around. On the other hand, there are also many people who don't judge. For example, your family and your nice future employer!
I wish you a swift recovery.